I’ve debated all week on how I wanted to approach today.. and honestly all week I thought we were coming up to the sixth year anniversary of my Dad’s passing.. only to realize I was a freshman in college SEVEN years ago and it has been seven years since my Dad took his final breath on this Earth. Time really does fly by fast when we aren’t paying attention and making full use of each and everyday. Not a day goes by where I don’t think about my Dad (or my Mom as well) and wish they were still on this Earth with.. how things might be easier if they were around and how I wish they were still here to teach me life lessons..
But then I look back and realize that they still are teaching me. Seven years ago, I was 18 years old and I thought I knew everything about life and I could do it on my own. I was spoiled. I was a brat. I got what I wanted. I didn’t pay attention to the hardships my family was going through as it didn’t effect me – I was selfish.
So seven years ago, I learned one of life’s hardest lessons – death. Seven years ago I lost my best friend. I lost the person who pushed me to get the education that I desired. I lost my reading buddy. I lost the person I thought would walk me down the aisle one day. I lost the future memories to come.. but really – I lost a part of my heart.
I’ve come to realize in these past few years that I became the person that people looked up to for answers – answers I’ll never have. How do you grieve for losing a part? How do you remain strong? How do you do life? The easiest answer I have – it’s not simple. To me, I have to constantly remind myself that just because my Dad is not here on Earth with me – he is a much better place.
So cheers, Daddy. There is simply not a day where I don’t think of you. I miss your smile. I miss your humor. I miss your laugh. I miss your love. I miss hearing your voice.. but really, I miss you. I miss my Dad. I miss the person who constantly pushed me to do the things I didn’t want to do. I miss the person who helped me become the strong adult I am today.
I love you. RIP. <3